First let's explore what I call, The What, Why, How Self-Improvement Cycle.
People who aren’t sure what they want to do in life tend to have poorer habits because why bother dealing with the discomfort and patience of creating good habits?
If you don’t have a particular goal in mind why bother exercising when you can watch Netflix, why bother reading when you can sleep, why bother, why bother, why bother?!
You’re not sure what your goals are. Nothing is particularly interesting to you.
I mean certain things sound good, but it's so much work to "run a marathon", "write a book", or "get an A". After the motivation subsides it just becomes drudgery.
Your not sure what your purpose is. You just take it day by day. Your only purpose really is to "be happy" and "do good".
But how can you know what your purpose is when no goals inspire you and there are no good habits that you like.
It's a vicious cycle - you don't have good habits, because you don't have meaningful goals, and you don't have meaningful goals because you don't have a clear purpose and you don't have a clear purpose because you can't stick with any good habits.
I think one of two things will break this cycle -
That kind of happened to me. I was miserable and made the decision that I could be miserable and play video games, or I could be miserable and read. I decided on the latter and haven't looked back.
But even before that decision I had high standards for myself, maybe not in school, but ever since I can remember I was always competitive and wanted to be the best. It was never a question of "if"